salutations and beginnings..

welcome! 

        Look at you enjoying my very first ever blog post in my whole life! Is it as exciting for you? Perhaps not, but thanks for coming. Let me tell you,  that i  am, in fact, quite used to that feeling; being excited, moved, intrigued, ringing with being alive (!) while others look on, perhaps a little bored, or a little 'oh how quaint', or a lot 'that is painfully cheesy and I almost cannot take it'.
  Yes, i am a sensitive lady. Lets add to that chronically optimistic, as well as actually dealing with chronic negative(are there positive ones? i'm not sure) mental health issues (depression, anxiety,post-trauma) and we have one of the many beautiful dualities that we observe/battle in our amazing lives.

    Should i start with some of my personal history also?  That could be a bit much, yes? We'll leave this short and sweet, and come back to some of that when i can talk about it coherently.
  *This photo is from my garden, it is a poppy, which i love and adore and are so beautiful and remind me for some reason, of Spanish dancers. They are of course very beautiful, but they are still so highly valued in our medicinal present, as our pain relief medication discovered by official means aprox 200 years ago, (and of course, humans have been using poppies for pain historically since the neolithic period) it is still the only one that works for excruciating pain, after all the research humans have been doing on the subject. i find that very fascinating. so, the other part, about the actual flowers; where i live, our beloved summer is rather short lived, and these flowers, they only last a couple of days at best, and yet we  buy them,plant them,wait for them and rejoice (ok i do) at their arrival. Just for the glimpse of beauty that we wait all year for. It's really just an observation of a small part of our lives, perhaps even mostly unnoticed. i feel that that glimpse of beauty in our lives is very important to many humans. *